I want to thank you Chanee, for reminding me that I had poetry in me. I went looking and I found some of my poems in an old email address I had. I typed them up and sent them to myself one day, lord knows why.
I laughed when I read some of them because it stands true, I am in love with love. As hard as I act and I shut myself out from the world to protect my heart, my poems tell it all. There were a few that were not about love but for the most part that's what I wrote about. I feel like I have been looking for it all my life. The fact of the matter is I want love, I want to be loved but most of all I want to love. Let's be clear I love my daughter, my family, my friends and my little suki with all my heart. This is not the kind of love I am talking about. I am talking about romantic love, intimate love. The love that renders you hopeless. The kind of love that makes you physically ill when you lose it.
I know everyone expects me, the Aries, to be harsh and cold. Aries, the egocentric, me me me people. The warriors, the head strong, the crass and bossy ones. News flash, we are sensitive and loving too. We are filled with passion and if you are lucky enough to win our hearts we are loyal and loving. I want to make a man feel like a king, tell him there is nothing he cannot achieve. I want to stand at his side and be the softness he rests his head on when the world has knocked him around. I want to be the voice that whispers in his ear when he is doubtful, reminding him that he is invisible. I want to make other men envious of him. I want to be the one that fills him with passion and fills his heart with love.
I want sit with him in comfortable silence and yell a little to spice things up when things get too routine. I want to follow my dreams and have him follow his so that we can meet up in the middle and laugh together about our adventures. I want cuddling and love making...followed by bursts of creative thought and conversations. Intellectually challenge me so that we may end up in a fiery debate and make up with sweet kisses in the sheets.
Public displays of affection will be mandatory and yes we will hold hands. Not because we are claiming each other but because we want our energy to remain connected amidst the craziness of the world. We will share healthy foods, in the kitchen together because I am not a good cook but a great sous chef. Most importantly we will be honest and truthful with each other, so when we need to be alone the other will not feel abandoned and afraid.
I imagine in today's world this all seems like a childish fantasy. Perhaps it is, I would rather bathe in my fantasies of love then settle for the wham bam business that is plaguing our society today. I am a hopeless romantic looking for another hopeless romantic to share my life with. I can see you the question is can you see me?
So the moral of today's story is....don't abandon your childish fantasies, they are the truth in your heart. Follow them, who knows where they may lead you.....
HAPPY FANTASIZING!!!!!
I laughed when I read some of them because it stands true, I am in love with love. As hard as I act and I shut myself out from the world to protect my heart, my poems tell it all. There were a few that were not about love but for the most part that's what I wrote about. I feel like I have been looking for it all my life. The fact of the matter is I want love, I want to be loved but most of all I want to love. Let's be clear I love my daughter, my family, my friends and my little suki with all my heart. This is not the kind of love I am talking about. I am talking about romantic love, intimate love. The love that renders you hopeless. The kind of love that makes you physically ill when you lose it.
I know everyone expects me, the Aries, to be harsh and cold. Aries, the egocentric, me me me people. The warriors, the head strong, the crass and bossy ones. News flash, we are sensitive and loving too. We are filled with passion and if you are lucky enough to win our hearts we are loyal and loving. I want to make a man feel like a king, tell him there is nothing he cannot achieve. I want to stand at his side and be the softness he rests his head on when the world has knocked him around. I want to be the voice that whispers in his ear when he is doubtful, reminding him that he is invisible. I want to make other men envious of him. I want to be the one that fills him with passion and fills his heart with love.
I want sit with him in comfortable silence and yell a little to spice things up when things get too routine. I want to follow my dreams and have him follow his so that we can meet up in the middle and laugh together about our adventures. I want cuddling and love making...followed by bursts of creative thought and conversations. Intellectually challenge me so that we may end up in a fiery debate and make up with sweet kisses in the sheets.
Public displays of affection will be mandatory and yes we will hold hands. Not because we are claiming each other but because we want our energy to remain connected amidst the craziness of the world. We will share healthy foods, in the kitchen together because I am not a good cook but a great sous chef. Most importantly we will be honest and truthful with each other, so when we need to be alone the other will not feel abandoned and afraid.
I imagine in today's world this all seems like a childish fantasy. Perhaps it is, I would rather bathe in my fantasies of love then settle for the wham bam business that is plaguing our society today. I am a hopeless romantic looking for another hopeless romantic to share my life with. I can see you the question is can you see me?
So the moral of today's story is....don't abandon your childish fantasies, they are the truth in your heart. Follow them, who knows where they may lead you.....
HAPPY FANTASIZING!!!!!
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